oh yah daniel ow didnt borrow money from me!!
dunno why haha... fell so bad now...
haha hope he settled it.. ha..
sorry... but i wanted to lend wad...
u didnt want to borrow... hmmm y am i feelin bad?
haha newae feel free to ask me... ill try..
haha....



exams time....
ha finished 2... one to go...
but seems like its all over...
sigh...
ha newae did i sae im not at home?
ha currently at a LAN shop.. the rest are liek playing..
but im just too tired to.. ha..
just had chem,
phy yesterdae but things do not look too good..
ha really disappointed fer chem...
studied really hard fer it...
actually its the only thing i studied fer...
haha..
but things didnt go too well...
didnt feel too bad bout phy, although it was rather easy,
but the main thing...
i didnt exactly studied hard fer it,
but not feel like i should have studied phy instead...
might have been able to passs...
ha... sigh... too late...
no mood to study fer anything now haha...
boring.. no difference now..
study or not... no difference haha...
didnt want to disappoint fer chem...
ha thought it as the only sub tt i understood haha bt...
ha sad?! hmm a little... wad to do...
ha sorry MR ong.. haha i tried...
but.. sigh..
haha i try harder next time...
ha gonna have maths on thurs but dont feel like studying fer it...
give up...
haha nah ill try(im sure)...
ha... hmm yah... haha... cant wait fer thurs...
ooh the fun and exitement... ha i feel it in my hands...
ha but i have to pass it...
ill try... haha but doubt i can.
sigh.. dont wanna disappoitn again.. ha...
try my best... do not wanna promise myself anythign more.. haha
hmmm yah... oh ya theres NE... haha hmmm maybe ill do well fer tt..
BUT i havent been reading up hte news.... haha sigh...
newae gtg continue later or on thurs...
see ya...
stay tuned haha...
to know how was maths...
or the study process...
but i think u can imagine it haha...
fightin on...

I.O.U

DANIEL OW GUAN JIE owes SHAUN THAM.
a hefty(haha) sum of $100.
to be returned by the 17th of july.
thanx...

heeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............



hmmm ha.. been a long wile since i last blogged...
but anyway... argh really caught up with the exam fever, this few days...
its been all mugging...
argh.. really tired...
newae dunno if i did the right thing tonight...
really confused.... argh...
y cant i just shut my mouth...
do i always have to be so nice?
sigh...
ha but argh just take it as a gamble...
trust and years of friendship are at stake...
ha its the first time im lending someone so much money....
sigh...
do i really need to? OR do u really need to...
sigh...
i hope i really made the right decision...
but wad if its a wrong move?
sigh...
do not have time to think so far...
exams are around the corner need to stay focused
ha... gambling on with my gut feel...
hope it is right, can't afford to lose....
back to my books for now...

OW GUAN JIE, DANIEL
u better pay me back my money...
snifff.... ha... i have to scrimp and save...
ha doubt most would believe
BUT
daniel ow is actually borrowing a $100 from me....
ha... better pay me back BY RENAISSANCE (ppl, anyone interested??)...
ok back... sniff....

O $ P $

haha.... oh... my money....
sigh....





bakc from yg's place..
last night wasnt as fun as the other time but, it was still fun...
went drinking?!.....
coffee...
ha... learnt how to play risk, boring game... argh... didnt sleep well.... had tuition after tt.. ha died..
newae the exams stress is beginning to set in...
really worried now..
is it only when it is too late then we regret?!
ah i think so... for me perhaps...
newae gtg study or slp now...really tired and i need to do something useful...
hmmmm oh no its fathers dae and i havent got anything..
darnz...
help...
so many things to do...
haha gtg now... oh yah anyone for the concert?
TAG ME...
hmmm i might not blog for the next week..
haha hoping to study during this time...
BUT i doubt ha... see ya...





ha long dae...
study..... balloon hunt agian haha...
gtg now...

off to yg's place.... hee stayover..



oh yah...
SJI RENAISSANCE 2004
on the 16th n 17th July 2004
@ the SJI Performing Arts Centre
tix at $10!!
interseted?
heee anyone wants to come? msg me...



haha realised i havent been blogging for a long while?
actually not very but anyway...
yah was too busy caught with band practices and studying...
shagged...
just returned from sji alumni band practice.. haha wasted time there haha it was more like a...
hmm waste-time session ha....
yah it was a total waste of time but most impt of all...
HAD FUN!!
hmmm tried studying in the mornin then went fer lunch ha...
afterwhich we spent time combing up and down streets for the BALLOONS...
gave up.. left on our own ways...
went to sji...
met d*****(doubt he wants to be disclosed ha, guess?) there at sji, as i MUST get my balloons and he needed to eat so...
we went bACK to town...
ate and FINALLY I found my balloons...
ha BUT...
while walkin into sji... the string holding it came off...
ha sent it flying into the sky...
hope it reaches heaven so GOD will know theres this poor soul on earth who really needs help haha...
hmmm yah but really had much fun and laughter with d ?
haha although the things he does might be a little CRAZY but it brought much laughter tt i hadn't experienced in a long while...
argh not forgetting him treating me like ur slave...
making me look like a selfish prick holding on to 2 balloons... ha..
but i noe u didnt mean it... haha right~~
and U THIEF!! stole my gums argh... ha..
ha thanx dude... ha newae really tired from all tt studying, banding(?!), laughing, horseplaying and all....
haha... gtg now... slp...
had fun i hadnt experienced in a long while todae....
knew it was goin to be an exciting dae... hmmm... tmr still remains a mystery... ha wondering was will it be like...




haha just back from school... had alumni pract...
deadbeat...
didnt go out with them for dinner was really tired wanted to come home early, so that i could on one hand save some money and on the other start studying earlier...
haha but looks like its gonna start tml again... haha..
but guess wad?! there wasnt much food left at home ha... sigh...
haha starving..
newae goin to study soon.. cant write any much more...
gtg now... study...
also wanna slp early so that i can wake up tml... hee...

btw at the stayover... haha there was this supposed card trick BUT haha it could like so called read fortunes?
haha tried.. haha something weird happened..
it was a near perfect result haha wonder if its true or if they did it correctly..
haha... i certainly hope... hee...

ok now gtg.... see ya tml...



dead...
i sooo dead...
dead from the stayover at yg's place and dead too for having not started studying for the mid years..
argh so daed sigh...
save me!!
heee the last 24hrs was really FUN...
went to hv to get a drink... then back to yg's place..
fancy playing monoploy till 5 in the morning... ha... and i wasnt tired... but now im feelin the aftermath...
haha fell asleep...
i woke up at 10 while the others only at 11..
then we porceeded for lunch then a swim at keppel club...
haha burnt...
then went to catch a movie back at town..
on the trip there, all fell asleep on the bus... ha..
a whole wasted day, but not exactly...
HAD FUN!!
hmmm back to studies, porbably gonna MUG for the next few days.. ha i hope i really need it...
newae gonna catch up with my tv.. ha ironic.. argh "i'll start tml" ha... gtg now.. to all others in my shoes, lets get started and fight on till the end.. cheers...



depressed...
i dunno but today started off really well till at night...
while chatting online with a fren, i dunno if i said something wrong? but of sudden, decided go off as i said something wrong? but personally i donT EVEN KNOW!! argh... if u ever see this im REALLY SORRY!!!
sigh...
i was trying to e nice? to try to be more sociable but who noes it was not of any help... argh... i really dunno i am super confused now...
is this an identity crisis?
now i dunnno if i had made the wrong move but i couldn't hold it to myself anymore... needed to talk to someone... now i dunno if i got the right person..
argh...
he was someone whom i really trusted then but now... im not sure.... i hope u are... ha... thanx anyway for that few words u written... argh... i hope i trusted the right person...
laughs at my stupidity...
sigh... im really confused now in my life now.. dont exactly no where i am headin for... or towards... argh... its bleak...
ha... trying to laugh my sorrows away...
wads becoming to the "always" cheerful me... am i supposed to be a loner... one who lives in my own world?? argH!!!
lost~...



amazed...
as the FAMOUS saying goes: nv judge a book by its cover...
i am truly in awe at how someone i know to be different from who he truly is... sigh.. not saying that he is bad... but knowing him for so long, nv knew him to be so complexed... i "underestimated" him... haha... truly impressed by him... WOW!! ha...
looks in admiration...



sigh...
as in look into amazement at, how happy and proud are ppl of at their bands, i turn back and look at mine...
embarassement fills my face... y cant we be like them... at least a little... the pride, confidence and honour they uphold... sigh but the day would eventually come...
okae apart from tt...
sigh...
study... study... study...
as i ponder to myself, with all that studying, has anything really gone in?
i dread waking up every morning nowadays... its always the same routine... study... hmph.. can't things be a little different?
as time goes by...
i often stop and take a look back on things... due to the constant changes in life... at times things pass by us too fast for us to even notice...
i am caught in a dilemma...
should i change constantly along with time or remain who i am?? but most times, changes are unavoidable... however it has to be for the better... sigh...
it took me a while to realise that friends who were then of a kind now are totally different people... hence the way they were once, are now not wad they were then...
sigh wad should i do?
change?
hmmmm...
can things ever be the same like before? hmmm i really ponder to myself... am i too nice to people resulting in getting bullied?? why should i always be the one looking at people's black faces? why am i always the first to apologise in fights? is it the humnan nature in me? i really worry...
should MR nice guy(ha) be gone? i really do not know... time i really wonder y should i change for people? wad should i do..
"adapt the world as the world can adapt to me"
OR
Be who i truly am?
this two, both poses its own sense and logic to it... which should i take? or rather which would benefit me more?
i want to be the guy tt all would favour and not hate... BUT how should i do it? sigh is this too, such a great problem? hopin discover my true answer in myself soon...
experimenting...
caught in a dilemma.....



Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.
Henry Bromel, Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, 1991



tired...
just returned from a concert...
as the music set in i wondered if i was there, playing...
ahh the sounds of a full band...
although it wasn't an EXCELLENT concert, it was overall... not too bad...
WELL DONE ACJC.. heee...
ooh daniel ow thanx to his forgetfulness and his irresponsiblenes?!? he lost a ticket causing our dear friend to have to miss the concert... sigh... but newae u played well haha or maybe ur sect... great job... wow nv seen u played like tt in sji... ha... change...
haiz CHANGE... how drastic can it get...
sigh at the end of the concert, i saw her yet once again(after a long while), now the feeling was stilll there but inexpressable... sigh who was exactly the third party?
i do not know...
sigh was it nearly there? or wishful thinking on my part?
i don't know either... how i wish i was the "victor" things might be different todae..
sigh... u might say im such a loser but wadeva... ha no one can understand how this feels besides myself...
its like getting the boot and not knowing it... argh the feeling is bad?! ha... sigh..
send me back in time...
ha... sigh but now i dont to be tt baddie tt destroys relations...
nah actually fine with it now although i seem not... maybe really not
BUT it doesnt matter...
sigh people really change fast... one time we can be best of frens the other moment no longer... haha how ironic...
sigh waiting fer the next sPecial person to appear to rid off this sour feel in me...
someone pls tell me wad should i do... sigh... enlighten me...
I will survive...



expecto patronum



sleepy...
gettin my notes done for tml's lecture...
argh bout tml its a SUPER long day.. argh..
dying...
reflecting on the famous saying:
"pot calling the kettle black."
WHAT did I DO???
huh fancy gettin told off for somethin tt i did not do but however by the person who DID it?!
wad is the world coming to argh.... U KNOW hu U R!!! sigh was really dazed when he told me bout wad i "HAD" done?!
maybe at times we should really sit back and reflect on what we have done... and if we are not able to do the same for something we should just learn how to SHUT UP!!! oMG im gettin emotional... bad bad... haha sigh... ok enough with tt...
seriously we should reflect on oneself and one's doings... ha... gtg now need to catch up with my sleep...
heee...