back from a long and tiring week...

although it was a rather boring week in camp,
it was still rather tiring having to wake up at 5
on a SAt morning is no mean feat....
haha but it was still fun,
walking the grounds
having REst more then actuallly praticising..
what more can i say its gonna be like this for the next weeks,
till NDP...

ha after the rehearsal,
went out with the usual ppl play tons of dollars at the arcade,
was trying to waste tiem and money till our 0030 show,
BATMAN BEGINS...
its not who i am underneath but what i do that defines me...
hmm i thought it was a not too bad show....
althogh some said they felll asleep haha crazy ppl...
i wouldnt be surprised but who wanted to watch such a late movie...
even i didnt fall asleep, having woke up so early!!
whos fault was it?

apart from that,
sigh,
its difficult to see ppl leave just when u are beginnning to know them,
its just about to happen to me...
although im only beginning to know him,
we seemed to have clicked rather well,
its all gonna end...
although im disappointed and sad,
but wad can i do?
i'll always be here wishing him all the best,
as he embarks on his journey...
sigh.... I'll miss u!! and i bet everyone who noes u would...

newae gtg for now....
SAF day is approaching and although i cant wait for it to get over,
but aaron gan will be leaving right after tt..
so i dotn know if im actually looking for it...
sigh....
hoping for the best ending...
sigh....
newae gtg now... thats all for now...
seee ya guys...
take care!!!

why do we fall?



hey ppl, finally after a way long hiatus...
IM BACK!!!
ha im just lazy...

hmmm btw nothing much happening these daes,
just feeling real bored from all the army stuff...
sigh...
i dunno wad or how am i supposed to feel,
for these few weeks just feelin real bad tt im not doin SAF dae,
i dunno if im disappointed or just...
sigh i dunno how to describe it....
although its supposed to be tirin,
havin to go out stay out all dae in the sun.
but i dont mind havin to do that...
i mean like i think i'll feel good doin it...
im not trying to be egoistic...
but i mean havin doen something not all will do?
how would u feel??
sigh dont ask me why or why am i not selected,
i dunno either...
i hope this will all be over really soon..

but anyhow i know that havin not done SAF dae,
im gonna be on the losing side...
sigh...
disappointing...
i just dont see why ppl around me all gets selected,
and im not...
sigh and i dont see why those ppl not get selected feel so happy..
argh...
we are like covering all their gaurd duties and everything else..
why cant it be fair and equal...
life aint fair... i know
and now we just found out tt even after SAf day,
the gaurd duty roster would remain as it is!!
tts too much...
i mean we are doin NDP TOO!!!
argh...
hmmm i dunno ill just see how everything goes...
praying for the best...
hopin tt my failure to be part in SAF day,
would not affect my future in SAFPU..

on the other hand apart from army,
i just recetly got university acceptance letters,
however this had put me in muh dilemma again...
i have two choices to pick from...
although it may seem easy...
its not!!
this concerns everything,
my life my future...
sigh hope im really making the right decision...
am i?
im accepted into NUS-FASS
and NTU-Materials Engin...
which one is it gonna be...
sigh....

haha i dunnno but recently,
i realised tt i dont feel myself anymore,
i keeep stressin myself out with al sorts of things,
sigh so many problems so little attn,
how am i supposed to handle all of it?
im not the usual happy me anymore...
where did the old me go to?
when will it be back?
i hope its soon...
it doesnt matter if i not happy inside,
as long i dont show, it will be fine..
i just hope it wont affect the ppl around...

ha newae gtg now...
dunno when ill be back hopin,
to get some new tags on...
some advice!!
haha.. see ya ppl all next time...
it'll be soon..
take care!!!