ok here goes for this post,
didnt plan for this post,
planned to do it only after this weeks NDP rehearsal,
but it loks like its gotta be now....

sigh...
newae there wasnt anything much this week in camp,
it was mainly just GOHes and all which still yet till now,
i have yet to be involved...
haha sad to sae...
ok no jokes in this post,
just a whole load of unhappiness...

ok on mondae,
wanted to do something useful,
but ended up as usual wastin the entire dae..
haha lazed around the whole day...

tuesdae...
there was GOH,
so we had a half dae to rest,
did nothing the entire morning..
in the afternoon had a short NDP rehearsal...

wednesday...
there wasnt anything much either,
cos they went to NCC for trainin in the afternoon
but i didnt go cos i HAD gaurd duty..
haha sigh sad but anyway,
this is the first guard duty tt i havent had any turnouts...

thursday...
had an NE trail,
it was fun been a long time since i went on an excursion...
haha yah then went to padang in the afternoon...
haha i was damn tired cos i didnt ahve guard rest from GD..
yah haha...
but i was fine...
yup...

todae was sports dae...
haha i enjoyed the half dae off.... yeap...

ok apart from activities this week....
sigh this week was a rather bad week...
yah conflicts aplenty...
its realy difficult to be a nice person...
sigh...

ok this was wad happened this week...

first...
on tuesdae i had to book out,
to get my passport sized photo taken,
when i left i knew i would have to get stuff for the bunk as usual,
as they were all not booking out... again...
haha so i insisted tt i would nto get anything...
so i left,
when i was at yew tee...
i got a fone call and as usual my bunk mates were askin me to get stuff and all...
ha.
yah and as usual the playful me,
insisted on not gettin anything for this particular bunk mate..
so i kept sayin NO,NO,NO,NO,NO,NO,NO,NO...
yah then we hung up...
but how would i know he would take it so seriously....
but ultimately i bought everythign they wanted...
ok when i went back.
i left the food this person told me to get for him on his bed...
cos they were still at the mess...
then i went to shower...
when i got back,
i realised the waffel was on my buddy's bed....
(my buddy OOCed so his bed is like my SUP bed)
yah at first i thought the blur me,
thought i didnt put it on his bed,
so i put it on again...
but then i saw him then transfer the waffle back onto my buddy's bed...
woooo...
tt made me boil....
i told him to take it and all where the wwas a smal tiff...
after tt a few minutes later,
he came up, and left some money on my chair...
but after tt he took the waffle and threw it into the dustbin...
...
tt act maxed me out...
i didnt want to say anythign to blow the matter up...
i just kept quiet...
didnt want to say anythign....
i didnt know wad to do or who to turn to...
so all i did was just thought to myself,
why should i lower myself to such status to do errands for ppl,
and still put up with ppl,
its fine enough tt i dont get a thank you or be appreciated,
but the least i could get was some respect....
am i like a maid or something...
it doesnt pay to be nice....
i always thought why do i always do things for others?
am i being too much of a nuisance...
sigh ppl always ask me..
why am i always buying things for others?
when i book out with them...
but wad am i supposed to sae.. NO?!
i thought it was just SHUN BIAN...
it was just tt dae tt made me really wonder am i OBLIGED to do it?
sigh...
nevertheless i dont think theres anything wrong with helpin others..
but pls treat me properly...
PLEASE~~~
ha...

ok now onto the second incident...
it still is the same person...
ok heres goes maybe i was at fault a little but need u be so angry...
on thurs was this particuilar persons birhtdae,
and as we had to stay in tt night we decided to give him a "little" celebration...
as usual army style...
we planned to actually powder his shoes.
then paint his face with camo and others....
too many to name in the plan...
yah....
so after lights out we decided to carry it out...
but everyone fell asleep...
only a few of us were left awake,
we still decdide to give him something...
so i took the powder and added to his shoes... and socks...
ha...
next morning,
the smart me forgot bout it,
and turned on the lights..
then after a while i realised he sat there starin down...
then i know yet again he was angry...
i apologised btu he was stil angry...
i didnt know wad to do...
but wad am i supposed to do i even DUSTED his shoes for him...
i gave up...
hnoestly perhaps to me.
i felt tt it was really something very serious...
maybe just me,
its just powder in shoes....
i really dunno...
maybe its not for me to judge,
but i just felt tt it might have been a little too petty...
sigh...
but it was not as if i did it on pur
pose?
it was his BIRHTDAE!!!!

so for the rest of the dae...
it was like two worlds apart...
in splendid isolation from the rest of the world....
sigh, i dunno,
but ithink he has yet to find out tt theres powder in his socks too...
heee...
hahah i dunno wad would happen...
but now i dotn care...
i think it has come to a point in time where by,
nothing can be doen to salvage this situation...
and i really dotn have the strength to....
the point i didnt get was why can our 2ic get like tau poked almost everydae..
with "free" shampooin and all...
and can still laugh it all away?
could tt have been done?
must things end up like?
i wonder if we had carreid out the full plan,
wad would ahve the ending been?
woudl it be better or worsT?
i presume tt now he thinks tt i did it solely,
but I CANT BE BOTHERED....
i would rather be the scapegoat,
then everyone get the blame....
i really dunno how would things turn out...
dunno and dotn wanna think bout it....

sigh i guess after all these months,
certain ppl still dont know me weel enough,
im not a serious person all i do is for fun..
so tt eveyone could be HAPPY!!
not seriously or on purpose...
i mean like why take everydae so seriously?
why not just enjoy everydae?
who knows if you'll leave till the next dae...
why torture oneself?
lifes' unpredicatable...
maybe its just me...
maybe i need to do to reflections....
or maybe my frens out there help me....
tag me give me some advice wad am i supposed to do?
or wad should i DO?!
HELP!

no more MR NICE GUY?!




ok here goes,
since ppl have been giving feedback,
that they want to read my blog.
i shall fufil their wish...
haha newae nah i just thought it was time to update...

btw for the past week,
nothing much has happened.
oh yah i for got to mention,
i was selected to go for some war memorial ceremony,
which felll on SAF day,
hence most ppl could not take part in it.
so they had to select a few others...
lucky on my part i got to go for it...
but seriously havin to do something beats doin nothing..
on the actual dae it was fun and exciting,
as anyhow it was the first parade i was mounting...
overall, for tt short period of time we spent trainin,
we sure did a reasonable job....
cheers...

apart from tt,
just had NDP training,
although it was a long and tiring day,
i must say i still did have fun..
though it wasnt easy havin to cope with last minute changes,
hopin tt it would turn out good...
but it wasnt tt bad after all...
we all had fun...
ha even though comin back to camp late and all physically drained...
ha cant wait for the real NDP to come,
i bet by then all will be hype up with enthusiasm and excitement..

besides all the excitment coming along,
sigh i dunno why,
although SAf dae is already over,
but why do the SAF lot still seem so privelleged?!
they just keep blabberin on how great they were at SAF dae and all...
quote:
"wah these GOH(at NDP) big la, i bigger, i troopped past them at SAF day yesterdae.."
er relevance? and the point here is?
sigh i dunno....
u may say i sound jealous or such, but this is what i feel.

guard duty is yet another point..
i dont see why they shld get less guard duty then us...
i mean if they think its not fair if they have to cover up for the guard duty,
they missed out durin the SAf dae season...
they can always do an equal number to us now...
instead of yet again doin less then the non-SAf dae ppl...
i mean we have already doen their guard duty for the past 2 months...
so shld it be time nwo when gurad duty now is equally shared among?
instead of favourin the SAF dae lot...
we too are involved in NDP,
if tt really happens,
wouldnt we be losin out on a lot of NDP rehearsals too?!
hence wont we be on the losing yet once again?

i really dont understand these ppl,
on one hand they are complainin that its not fair tt they have to do so much,
so to them it would be fair,
if others so more and they do minimal!?
sigh..
ihope there would be some change to this...
a proper solution shld be out...
fair to both sides...
i hope... BUT doubt...
the non-SAF dae will still lose out on some parts...

TOO BAD...

like they say the world aint fair....
nothing is fair in the world...
however the ball is round,
what comes round goes round....
but doubt tts very relavant here,
its not happening...

wheres equality in the world tt we have been strivin for since civlisation?!