hey ya'all,

just returned from yet another day of excessive and unneccessary spending.

checked out this rather young and vibrant cafe off purvis street, Ms Clarity Cafe, with khoon wee and benji for lunch . as the name of the cafe sounds yup, it was predominantly filled with females. however i must say it was a rather good recommendation from benji(finally for once, 10 points for that!). the food there wasnt too bad and it was reasonable too. its a should go i must say, do check it out if u are around the corner. not a bad place after all. after which we headed to town for some after meal excercise, then home and out again for dinner. went over to holland V at night with junyi, johnny, shuming n jon, for dinner and drinks. mentally CHILLED at essential brew and then again literally CHILLED at eskibar, a rather relaxing night i must say. finally im home now after yet another long long long day.

on a more serious note,
i hate spending time alone, whenever im all alone, my mind drifts on and with my vast imagination, different thoughts come to mind.
to most, i appear to be a rather happy and stressless person, deep inside im covered with tons and heaps of problems that i can never solve myself. on the outside, i may appear to be like any other teenager of my age, however inside i am not like any and would never be like them. there a billion things that i can only keep to myself and i can never share or dare speak up about it. how can i finally be like another teenager? how can i rid of all these problems and be NORMAL finally?
i need solutions. where do i get them?

drowning in nonsensical trauma.
Shaun



hey guys,
im back once again.

just returned from yet another shopping session with the usual bunch of people. it was great except for a minor misunderstanding that happened just before we were going home. sorry guys, i was perhaps too tired and maybe lost my absurdly immature and childish temper. sorry.
i had a rather long day today too. having to wake up real early after sleeping late in the wee hours of the morning, yup was rahter taxing especially in the later part of the day, resulting in my bad temper. im sorry guys.

anyway, apart from today, the week hasnt been goin on very fine. my GOD Grandmother passed on at 92 last saturday. having be the GOD grandson i had to be around at the wake when i was able too. personally, this is rather one of the funerals that i had to play a part in. anyway, i nv liked the atmosphere of funerals. gloomy and sad. but i mean thats what funerals are supposed to be like. however, when its time for me to move on. i hope mine wouldnt be gloomy and sad like the usual ones. i want be a cheery one whereby everyone would be happy. ha the world, rid of an irritating monster, apart from that, i want everyone to know that i have left for somewhere rid of all the stress and the much hated rites of life on to somewhere i would be having a much happier and peaceful life. cheers, ha i dunno when this day would come and usually people would hate to talk bout such issues but for me, im ready to take it on now. im just tired. i need a good rest, i want to just close my eyes and rest forever.
im just confused.

hmm, anyway im really really sleepy now.
gonna sleep now. tomorrows gonna be a brand new day.
gotta gear myself up for the upcoming troughs in life.
hoping for the happy things that have been appearing on and off, now and then to stay. but i wonder then again how long will this happiness last.

smiling leads to unlimited happiness...

confused.
Shaun.